My Best Friend, Alfie

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“A dog has no use for fancy cars, big homes, or designer clothes. A water logged stick will do just fine. A dog doesn’t care if you’re rich or poor, clever or dull, smart or dumb. Give him your heart and he’ll give you his. How many people can you say that about? How many people can make you feel rare and pure and special? How many people can make you feel extraordinary?”
― John Grogan, Marley & Me

meet my best friend. my heart. my happiness. and my the most loyal being: my dog, alfie. i hate to leave him in the mornings and i look forward to coming back to him in the late afternoons. when i’m sad, he just knows and he comes to cuddle with me, lending me his happiness so i don’t have to be sad anymore. as i write this on a big couch with lots of room, he is cuddled up right beside me, touching me, making sure i’m there beside him.

why? because there’s nowhere else in the world he would rather be. see, a dog is the most loyal form of being on this earth. a dog seeks love from you, and in return, he will give you everything. it’s almost impossible to find that in man. it’s almost impossible to find a human who’s highlight of life is you. whether it’s cuddling with you, playing catch with you, getting a treat from you, taking a walk with you, licking away your tears, sharing your plate of food, or facing obstacles with you. a dog is content as long as his owner is with him, no matter what they face, as long as they are facing it together, a dog is the happiest.

a dog is full of pure and genuine love, he’s just finding the right person to give it to.

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Bob Marley…

Bob Marley

“you may not be her first, her last, or her only. she loved before she may love again. but if she loves you now, what else matters? she’s not perfect – you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. she may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break – her heart. so don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.”

-Bob Marley

John F. Kennedy…

John F. Kennedy

“Israel was not created in order to disappear – Israel will endure and flourish. it is the child of hope and the home of the brave. it can neither be broken by adversity nor demoralized by success. it carries the shield of democracy and it honors the sword of freedom ♥”
-John F. Kennedy

Thoughts of a Law Student, a Revelation.

ever since i could remember, i have always wanted to be a lawyer. and so i dedicated many aspects of my life to making that dream come true. i chose a major during my undergraduate studies that i both loved (and still love) dearly and that i knew would make me a better lawyer. after obtaining a bachelor’s degree in psychology, my journey was now one step closer to my goal: i was on my way to law school.

let’s just skip all the little tid bits that don’t really matter, this is what matters: after a year and a half of being a law student and practically loathing every minute of it, i have finally finally understood why. and the purpose of mentioning my undergraduate major is here because pondering upon psychology is what gave me my answer…

i feel as though i am not exercising my brain in law school. insane, right? well, no – and the reason being is this: in undergrad, i wrote research paper after research paper, revision after revision, analysis after analysis, and i was using newly developed material, studies, and theories to create my papers. i was actually becoming more educated in new developments – substantively – i was growing. i think of myself as a flower that was developing and blooming so beautifully and then BOOM, the drought of development comes once i reach law school and now i’m shriveling up in my little pot and my petals are falling one by one.

in law school, it’s not about learning new theories and developments, it’s the exact opposite. all we learn about is the common law and cases that were created before my mom was even born. weird, right? you wonder what the point of this institution is. but law school is not concerned with “newness,” law school is concerned with teaching your brain how to think as opposed to what your brain can find and put into a paper. law school teaches you how to analyze and think on a level that many cannot attain. law school is a creature that is unique and can only be appreciated when understood. while i’m thankful for the kind of non-substantive development my brain is receiving in law school, i can’t help but miss blooming again.

i think truly though, that law school also gives us a taste of real life. in real life, we don’t have papers due, research to conduct, and revisions to make – on the contrary, there are no revisions in life. law school teaches self-discipline. if you really want to research and grow, guess what? you have to do it on your own, because life won’t demand a paper from you regarding the controversies of the Rorschach Ink Blot Test or the effects of Cocaine on the brain. you want it, you have to find it.

so law school, while i loathe your methodology of teaching, i can say that i do appreciate the other type of learning that you are providing me with. i appreciate you teaching me to analyze and think uniquely and become aware of what real life requires.

while i appreciate you, law school, i miss my research, my papers, and my psychology far more. i miss blooming…

Unanswered Thoughts

often times, the hardest things for us to do are the best things. it seems paradoxical to be that way, but life is an expert at confusing us and twisting our arms. how unfortunate is it to never know when the right time to let go is? how mind boggling is it to never know which path is the “right” one?

life really is a road full of many paths and turns, and it really is the ability for us to use our experience and our intuition to make the right strides towards the rest of our lives. but what do we do when we hit a fork in the road and path “a” seems like the right road for the moment, but then path “b” seems like it may be better in the long haul. but what if it isn’t?

what happens when we make the wrong turn, can we turn back and begin running back to where we began? will the other path be there for us to take? what if what we thought was the right direction is actually not, and everything we thought we were or aspired to become is no longer what we want?

how do we get up from an entity that we have invested so much time, love, and nurture in, and walk away? is it a balancing approach? do weigh the pros and cons? how do we know when it is time to let go? do we wait until we feel comfortable on our own and not empty?

do we talk ourselves out of the thought because of familiarity, and not necessarily happiness? when is enough really enough? do we have a breaking point that we create on our own, or does our body and physiological system have all the power to act and judge what our “limit” is?

introspection is necessary. it is imperative that we know ourselves; who we are, before we continue with anything else. it is important not to know the answer to all of these questions, but to be content with not knowing all the answers. such answers will come when they are meant to be discovered – but do not be clouded by the thoughts of others, follow your intuition… and you’ll find, that while you do not know every answer, you know yourself , and that is the most important foundation for success.

-leerdalia

Little Things…

“while the future is an important thing to think about… it’s okay to set those worries aside, take a deep breath, and embrace this exact moment. be happy; be thankful for the little things – for they create the big things.”
-leerdalia